Swit'sssss

hees.

2011-06-13T09:16:00.000-07:00

Don't know what to post. I just know I am very busy this whole week until rest time also doesn't have. All stuff like stuck together in a week. FML. What really fml is I don't know what to wear on friend wedding dinner. Grrrr....

Enjoy watching you sleep. =)

19/5/2011

2011-05-19T06:41:00.000-07:00

YEAH! One day did not contact each other. Great huh? Bullshit. Do I really think like that? You know how I feel and yet still no any text and call. Hooray! Happy because no one can really annoyed you anymore? Yes! I can help you to answer it. I really don't know what had happened between us until become like this. I tried and tried to save it but I can't. I don't have the ability to make things change. Maybe this is what you want but not dare to say it out. Now, its a 'great' way to let things past and end everything. To you at least. I know its time to say goodbye without holding back any feelings. Bye !

It's a matter of time.

2011-05-17T01:06:00.000-07:00

当爱与不爱一样那么心痛。

When these happened, you really don't know what should you do. It looks like every step you make doesn't feel right.

better in time

2011-05-15T08:43:00.000-07:00

Tears can't stop dropping again.

Broken again.

2011-05-15T08:36:00.000-07:00

I make the decision again. I ain't regret but I can't let go. Once I love; I will love until the end. I said it before ; the reason I letting you go is because I love you. Let me be the bad guy for this. Yes, I am selfish. I don't want to get hurt for another time again. I scare of pain, scare of hurt. I just want to protect myself. You thought that I very happy after all these happened? You never know how pain am I. You said I don't understand you but you yourself know that you doesn't love me anymore. I gave you all the things you want and I wait wait and wait. What I get is the feeling of hurt again. Never call never text to hold this relationship back. Truly hurt and disappointed. What I want is so easy. I just want someone to care for me, make me laugh when I sad, listen to me whenever I need a listener, accompany whenever I want. I just need you to treat me as your most important one. Not find me when you want or dump me when you don't want. Love shouldn't be like this. I know I will never get back him even though I love to. I still love him but I doesn't want a relationship like this. Stupid in love; I am. 就当我不懂得爱。

Love?

2011-04-19T05:45:00.000-07:00

This few days I had been through alot and my head keep on spinning and spinning non stop because I was thinking. I realised that what people always say is true. " Loving a person not necessary need to own him/her; as long as they happy is enough". Before this I was thinking why I love that person then I can't own him or her. Is that ridiculous? I must own them. That was my mind before this. But now I had understand all. All you want is just your loved one to be happy so let them go to find their happiness if they want to.

p/s:If I ever let go is because I too love you. <3

Broken heart

2011-04-15T04:04:00.000-07:00

To those who care, I would like to thank them. I appreciate it very much. Yes, I'm single now after attached for like 6 years plus. Everyone ask me why like that or what happened. What can I say is "it's over now". Not that I don't love him anymore, I still love him. But things happened as I not expected. Not really also. Before this I can feel it that he don't love me like he did past few years. But he denied it and I just forget about it. And now I can't stand it anymore. I just want to end faster to avoid things become more worst. I do feel sad if I say don't that would be a lie. Everyone, its not his fault and there is no right or wrong in love. Maybe I not attractive enough to make him stay or whatever. But please don't jugde him as a jerk. Me myself can't believe that this have to end. In this 6 years, he was my only one and everything I do was because of him. Now, I have my friends and my family. I love them more because they care for me at this tough moment. I will stay strong. Mum, I know your heart hurt as much as I do but I will get over it as fast as possible. Sis, thanks for supporting me and I know you care me as much as mum do. I never make you all fall your tears because of me again. Mum still said will let me go far far to study and get over it. Loves you all. To those who thinks its my fault, go ahead. I don't mind you people talking bad about me. I was like thinking even a few months relationship can't beat a 6 years relationship, what for I keep this love anymore so I giving up. If our love is that weak, there's no use I still hold onto it. I knew you will be reading this someday so I would like to say thanks for all the memories. Go for your dream and good luck in your future. Lastly, I only lost a person that don't love me anymore but that person lost someone that love him. Mean, I lost nothing. ;)

I write these not to get attention or what, I just find a way to write down my feelings.

Tired

2011-04-10T06:39:00.000-07:00

I never thought of anything until you started it. I not that kind of people who play around, take things easily. I tired of waiting because you never care. Can't play this game anymore. Fed up and giving up.

Something stupid to write about. :)

Right or wrong?

2011-04-07T21:55:00.000-07:00

These few days just doesn't feel right. I always hope for someting that wasn't true and completely wrong. AHH~ How nice if that could be happen. ~~dream somemore.~~ That feeling was so strange and I can't help with it. Grrr..
Anyway, yesterday was my last day working at my previous working place. I miss there somehow since there is my first proper working place. Miss you guys seriously. No joking. Hees. Seriously not so use to it. Suddenly like nothing to do, like lost direction towards life but then I got a new job. New life begins on Monday. ;)

Now, I rotting at home for fews day. Ask me out pleaseeeeee. Bored at home.

Burlesque.

2011-03-10T06:56:00.000-08:00

I know its a bit late for watching Burlesque now but I just watched it yesterday and it was amazingly awesome. Only one word can be describe: WOWWW. At first when I know this movie was about to release, I had no any feeling to watch it but then I saw Youtube keep on posting its video. I even pressed at the play button and see what it is about but after 1 minute like that I closed the tab. Don't know why I go and watch it yesterday. Burlesque gave me surprise and I was wow, it is great. Great story line, great music, great singer and even great actors/actresses. Summary, BURLESQUE AWESOME. =D

CHER.

CAM GIGANDET. <3

CHRISTINA AGUILERA.

Last week, watched Sex and The City 2 also. I like it too. I like their life. It's like nothing to worry about. Nice clothes and nice everything. Never forget luxury life they had too. When only I get this kind of life.

This song is funny.

Thanks. =)

2011-02-21T09:38:00.000-08:00

21st of January was the most important day of my life except birthdays and anniversary. This day determine my life in future. This day is result taking day and I'm so damn scare that I will fail and get low marks. I scare until not dare to open the envelope. HAHAHAHA. Stupid hor? Luckily I got a satisfied result and nothing I want to complain about. Thanks to everyone who support me and accompany me walked through that war moment. I'm very happy and glad that at last I can catch up. GLAD! I make my family proud of me once again. =D And now it's finally over and I can sit back and relax ( for awhile I think). Still have to 'fan' how to apply Uni, what course to take and ptptn thingy. Btw, is Yayasan that scholarship open this year? There is always something to do. AHH.

Besides of result day, I think that today is a bad day to my sister and her friends. Their bag get stolen by someonebrainlessandblablabla. School bag also want. =.= Everything were lost include her books and pencil case. Funny huh? Imagine the next day you go to school and teacher ask " Where is your bag, books and why you don't bring pen to school, are you challenging the school law?" LOL!!! She scolded me because I laughed her. HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA.

Mouth ulcers are devils. They are not good! EVIL!!! They make me pain for like so many days and i keep on apply bonjela (some teething and ulcers gel) , apply salt and drink water until my stomach sooooo bloat. I can't speak well, eat and even drink. I gonna die from ulcer soon. FML! Somebody cure me, please. =(

missing my baby boy.

Plain.

2011-02-05T09:14:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year guys.

Not in the mood to blog but have something want to say out.

This year CNY is not a very enjoyable year for me cause need to work. Sien. No new clothes. No new everything. Sad case.

Hope next year will be a great CNY for me. And of course everyone of you all.

(Looking forward for next CNY) =)

Working place full of drama. More sien. I hate that type of situation, make all of us not healthy due to over-worried. I can't stand that situation, I think I will aging more early. Damn! I can't tell what happened because I think it is quite personal until can affect someone or company name. What can do is hope everything will be settle ASAP!

Dramass

2011-01-27T07:56:00.000-08:00

Something happened today and I don't feel easy as what had happened. ( Can't tell what is the incident )
Overall: I don't like argument but I can't stand people keep on making mistakes and think that ' I'm right all the time ' . When someone give advise, then you should hear it, isn't it? Someone just keep on banning my ideas today. F! Damn beh syok, right? But then,( to me ) I don't hear instruction or advise from people whom I don't respect! It just wasting my time and energy. I don't like gossiping too. ( if you think I am that kind of people, please! You don't know me well ) If you don't like, come and say it to me. One more thing, I don't know why some people very good in acting or should I say Pro until can get Grammy Award. I saw hell lot of people who keep on saying that ' I don't like her/him lo. Damn fake and blablabla '.(Named that people X) After few minutes or whatever time it is, X talking VERY friendly and politely with people whom X doesn't like. *Sigh*
Life is hard afterall but rainbow will comes. =)
End that meaningless post.

Saw a commercial video just now from Petronas and I almost burst into tears. Forgive me for being emotional.
Here it is.

I don't know why I feels sad when I saw old people left by their children. :(
I can't promise I will be a perfect child but I will try my best to treat my parents and grandparents them nicely.

What to?

2011-01-14T06:36:00.000-08:00

Babyboy went back UUM today and my lonely life started. No la, no time to lonely also but still waiting him to come back as usual. :) Quite busy since I started my job. Keep on working working working from day to night until shit time also don't have. LOL! Nevermind cause it's a fact that need to work hard to achieve what you want, isn't it? I understand now and I will try my best to achieve my goal for this year. Be tough !

$$$$

I don't want to talk about my job. Conclusion is all is okay and more good thing is coming ( I hope). Today is my offday after so many days of work and finally I can eat home-cooked rice. I miss 'chu ga fan' and vege alot alot alot.

And and , suddenly I thought of babyboy 21st birthday is coming in less than a month. Gosh ! I don't know what should I buy for him and I want to make it a special day for him. :) Buy key meh ?

Ish. No idea what should be done.

I asked him what he want and he answered "Big barney lo" .

Gik sei me. But still love him heaps. <3.

Can anyone give me some ideas? I think my brain gonna rust soon cause I don't think I use my brain lately. Become more stupid. Seii !

End .

Latest addiction. I mean the song not the singer.

I love you, babyboy. <3

The first in 2011.

2010-12-31T09:56:00.000-08:00

HELLO and HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone. I'M BACKKKKKKK after soooo many months, i think its been 3 or 4 month like that i had abandoned my blog. I know my blog is dead and I'm here to make it alive back. So, here i come peeps. The reason why i abandoned my blog is because I'm preparing for my BIGGEST exam of my life -----> STPM. I had realised that surfing net wasted alot of my time so I stop blogging and cut down my time on computer and internet-ing ( I hope that will help me).

But now it's over and I'm free now. I feel good and I don't want to think about it anymore so let it pass. =D

Okay. Now lets summarise what's going around me for these few weeks after exam. After exam i went to steamboat and find job as i need money sooo damn much. I interviewed for like many times but lastly i got a job in a shopping complex. Not proud of that complex so name no need to announced here but I kinda like that job. I hope it will be easy and going smooth for me as I stupid in communicate with people so cross finger and pray hard. Will start work tomorrow. Everything new. Smile.

What can i say about my life in 2010? Except studies everything is okay. Not much obstacle. I mean I still can solve it with a hand form people around me. Thanks to them especially my baby boy and mum and dad. I love you all so much. Hmmm..
What about 2011? What's my resolution for this year? New life definitely. Everything changed for this year as I step into 'work' world. Okay.
The most important resolution for year 2011. Tadah!
1. Earn as much money as i can.
2. Macbook. (Yea, my dream laptop)
3. Tone down my body. LOL! (That people ask me to do it)
4. Make my traveling dream come true.
5. MOST IMPORTANT THING OF ALL ---> acceptable result and get into local university.
6. Change hair colour. (Fatt hao. Lol)
7. Improve communication skill. ( I don't know how to talk and end up zip my mouth. Embarrassing.)
That's all I can think for now. What i most worry about is tomorrow, my first day to work. Many wishes right now. Hope that this job is suitable for me. Hope I can make friend with my colleagues well. Hope tomorrow will be a good day for me. Hope my PMS cramp will not come and disturb me. Hope everything will be alright.
After work, time together with babee become lesser and lesser and that makes me sad. He busy with his studies and I busy with my work. Busy with own things. What I want to say is imisshim very much. No matter what happen, let's make 2011 a best year for both of us. Love you, babee.

p/s: Have to sleep early due to work tomorrow.

Have a nice year ahead people.

Goodbyesssss

2010-09-17T05:22:00.000-07:00

Lazy to update but still feel like want to write a short post.

Somethings really terrible happened today.

First is I don't get what they had promise me. I always don't get what I want so FML! They always said it but didn't did it. OKAY! FINE!!!

I hates people who said something but never do what they said!

Hate like 9874613412352132456789909755342176546 times.

Second, I don't like this moment. I don't want it to come but he had to. ='(

Gah~ I don't actually like saying goodbye! Really hate especially have to speak to him.

Honey boy leaves me again! =((

For once again, my emotions is soooo unbalance right now. No mood to do everything again. Wants to be alone and listen to music again. Again Again Again.

I've been through this moment but still I cannot do it.

I CANNOT BEAR WITH IT!

Oh god, need ur help.

I want to cry out loud. Really LOUD that type.

mixed

2010-09-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

Backed from KL yesterday but didn't buy much. Feels like nothing to buy even though having sales now. Wasted money. >.< Thought can add some new member in my wardrobe but cheh.
I swear I'll go again to grab many many manyak manyak clothes come back!
Anyway, happy because of babeee. Thank you, beeee.

Suddenly thinks of babee have to go back soon, feels so sad. =(
Has to wait for another 2 months and more to see him again. Really saddening loooooooooo.

While sad, pressure is coming. EXAM EXAM EXAM! Troublesome lo. Ban exam la!

=))))

2010-08-31T04:04:00.000-07:00

My honey boy had came backed.

Wheeee. =D

I'm glad that you lied to me.

Thanks for the surprise.

I love you beeee.

Keep on smiling when saw you. =))))))))

wish

2010-08-30T06:09:00.000-07:00

Short post.
humph~ How I wish he had came back and stand in front of my house gate at the moment i standing at the gate as i don't know everything. At the distance that i can reach him easily and hug him.
How I wish he lie to me that he still at Kedah.
I wish I wish I wish.
Miss him terribly. =(

Speechless.

2010-08-10T06:06:00.000-07:00

I advised you, you didn't hear.
You don't want to believe.
What you doing now is hurting people around you. And you don't even realise.
You had make people dissapointed on you.
Truly dissapointed!
You scolded me for being care too much.
Okay. Fine!
I don't want to care anymore.Anything about you. I stopped talking to you because i don't want to. I dissapointed on what you did.
Hear to what is wrong and keep on finding reasons is what you doing now.
Avoiding from the truth.
You ruined everything.
Once you fall then you will realise you lose everything. Everything that is not worth to lose because of your action. EVERYTHING!
For sure, you will regret.

I cried because I care.

Worms.

2010-07-26T05:39:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, mind think of this.

'Form sixes are not stupid. To whose did not get good result is because they're lazy. Not work hard enough.'

*sigh*

WORK HARDER LAAAAA!!!

Include me.

Sorry.

2010-07-17T00:52:00.000-07:00

Why my blog always full of hatred huh? I don't want to but my life is just so fucked up.

Okay. Just now while eating desserts I suddenly pissed off at my father and i felt sorry to do that. I don't want to be like this but I am bad tempered when he is around. Maybe because of pressure or something i don't know. He don't give me pressure but there is a kind of pressure when he is around. Frankly, I not so close with my dad compare to my mum. I feel that is a gap between us and i cannot help with it.

I AM REALLY SO SORRY.

I feel sorry but it's hard to speak it out. Why human always hard to say sorry?

I think I need to consult phychologist and get rid of this tempered problem. There is so many problem inside me that i need someone that is professional to talk with. I'm definitely not a phycho. I believed that phychologist really can help someone with problem that they can't solve it. They 'open up' and 'clean' our mind.

Really sorry, dad. =(

I'm Sorry!

shitty week.

2010-07-08T22:09:00.000-07:00

Okay.

I've been sick for three days and still not yet recover.

Started with sore throat then fever then headache comes.

Since Wednesday, my fever keep on come and go.

And with serious headache now, whenever i stand up i felt like want to faint. Sleep doesn't help. When i rest my head, the pain comes again.

With sore throat, i lost appetite to eat because i hardly swallow the food.

ALAMAK!

When does this pain go away, huh? So i skipped class today with a little joy (HAHAHAHAHAHA) but i don't want continue to sick.

Is there a chance that I will getting H1N1? If yes, really DIE.

again

2010-07-04T04:00:00.000-07:00

AH~ again my emotional is sooooooooooooooo unbalance. I cried when i see your message.

THIS IS SO NOT ME.

OH GOD.

='(

everything.

2010-07-04T02:07:00.000-07:00

I don't have the mood to do everything. I don't talk when I'm not happy. Just want to sit at somewhere to clear my mind. *sigh* Whenever i think about the Boy, my tears keep on rolling at my eyes. I want to cry out loud at somewhere there is no people around. I don't get used you're not at here. Please come back here ASAP.

I never thought i would be like this. I thought I'll be okay just as before you're leave.
I MISS MY BOY. seriously.

i can cry whole day when i think of you.

cheh!

2010-07-02T10:24:00.000-07:00

Met bitch and jerk. And they make me unhappy and extremely pissed. But then i learned something that 'Don't feel sorry for those who are not worth it'! Agree? And 'No mercy for those did not respect you'. Don't think it because they not worth to get your attention. This will only waste your energy and make your eyesight become worst. Don't make yourself suffer la please! *Sigh* Whatever! don't let small unimportant things affect me.

Alright, tonight supposed to be a good night but something happened.Anyway, watch Knight & Day just now. It was GREAT, AWESOME, WONDERFUL and you say it.

OMG!!! See him. Nice body. Muscular. <3

Nice scene with nice people. LOL

Yeeeng douuuuuuuuuuuu.

Tom Cruise wassss awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Although he is not young anymore but still cool, man. Really irresistible. Great man nice body for his age. Everything perfect!!!! Cameron Diaz was cute. AH~

Conclusion : Great actors make good movies.

p/s: I know i know. I know i kinda crazy about him but can't resist la. HAHAHAHAHAHA

Dulan because i thought of watching The Back-up Plan but Ipoh's cinema is a bit AHEM so can't watch it. Ipoh's cinema HAIZ~ Sex and The City 2 also tarak. Cheap.

MATHS again

2010-06-28T07:37:00.000-07:00

Aduh!

Stuck with Probability la wei. What is that? I hate this chapter to the max and i don't have logical sense.

No understanding at all!!!!

Argh! Help me please! =(

=(

2010-06-21T03:08:00.001-07:00

Have to say goodbye to my darling boy soon. In two weeks time you will be gone for studies.

Human

2010-06-21T02:51:00.000-07:00

Human beings are always full of emotion whether what's your responsibilities, poses you holding or what kind of professional job you working. Human is human and there is no much differences between one except genes or DNA. They don't realize we are all same and there is no stages between us except ages. Ya, old folks should be respect and i'm absolutely agree with that but some people just become soooooooooooooo ridiculous. That's why YOU people thought that YOU guys are always correct and no mistakes would be done. CHEH!!! Sometimes we, students more clearer what we do then these people. No comment on these people anymore. Fed up.

Conclusion : Students are always wrong.

DYING!

2010-06-06T04:05:00.000-07:00

okay. this post is about how dying i am due to starwalk. today woke up at 5 and my throat was okay then i ready myself. going to taman cempaka to fetch alicia and we lost. HAHAHAHAHA. we saw 2 old man and woman sitting outside of their house don't know doing what, we decided to ask road. after she bla bla bla i still have no idea what she was trying to say. HAHAHAHAHA.

SORRY, aunty.

now i flash back, how will these 2 people sitting outside a house that have no light and the door was locked. under the tree somemore. freaking creepy. will there have a chance that they are not human? AIYER!!!!

while asking road, alicia called foo and lead us to her house. while finding right, we had a small accident. kinda funny. that foo keep on pressing the oil without looked at behind then we heard a BANG! he bang on people's car. LMAO. luckily no people at there and we quickly ran away. pheww~ then of course we found alicia's house la and we had our breakfast at there which was prepared by aunty lim. =) ate wantan mee with teh tarik. aunty was so funny, she keep on rushing us to be FAST!! HAHAHAHAHA.

we reached stadium at around 6.45 a.m. and walked to stadium because we parked at kfc there and shit! there were damn lots of parking space at there. =.=" stupid. lepas itu, became sardine and register. lots of human lo and they DON'T KNOW move at all. talked talked talked at there. dah lah no air, got thousand type of 'fragrance' at there. MOVE FASTER LA!!! after that, we ready at the starting point the most front place for the first time. LOL! of course when started others were faster then us la and and and that foo and alicia walked fast fast and run. then i shouted, ' now two of you in competition group meh?' left me behind. knew my leg is shorter then you two of course slow la. walk at 180km/h wo. berani engkau?! HAHAHAHAHA. after a moment, alicia full of spirit go and walked fast fast. left me and foo at behind. nvm, we take our sweet time to walked and share jokes. had fun and exhausting till die. cannot stand already but we cheer up each other and complete the route and finally get the cert. and the most stupid thing was my shoe spoilt and the shoe base suddenly came out. that time really *&^%$#@!. NIKE somemore. Adidas is far more good quality than Nike. cheap shoe! i thought have to buy a new one and i was sooooooooo happy because got a reason to spend again. then mum will not scold me. HAHAHA. i forgotten my boyf working at there and his car has one pair of shoe. =.= can't spent already. save for next shoe that i waited for sooooooooooooooooooo long and finally it arrived at ipoh. i told my mum and ended up get scold. HEHEHEHE. someone buy for me please. it's only rm79. ooohhhh, come on!

had our lunch at food & tea, ah foo keep on complained his food was suck and mine was okay besides too much oil. EWWW! i ate stir fry spaghetti. i thought it will not harm my throat then my thought was WRONG! and now i'm dying from sore throat and leg's pain. eat also pain drink also pain walk also pain. diu!!!!!! became cacat already. next tuesday i still have plan. i want sing K. come on throat, heal faster la. had sore throat for a week already. 'ngo jip sau ng dou lo'!!!!! i even bought medicine from pharmacy and drink chinese herb still no effect. die lo. i can't sing! *sob*

eat.

2010-05-29T23:49:00.000-07:00

i've been craving for momo chacha for 2 or 3 days i think.

i want eat MOMO CHACHA! YUM~

hahahaha.

and i been wasting my time just like that. watching movie, surf the net and sleeping. ADUH! exam is still on and my study spirit is gone. alamak. how can like this.

EAT!

fuck MATH!

2010-05-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

duh! now, i am fucking hate MATHS and i HATE it soooooooooooo much. regret now. why am i taking maths years ago. i stuck with the fucking MATHS now. i facing the question paper for like 98765412345679 times and still i can't figure out WHAT IS THAT?!!! MATHS = BURDEN. ishhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! help me by giving me a little maths brain. just a LITTLE and that is what i wish and glad to have it NOW! Tuesday gotta pass it up and i done 0 out of 20 questions. shit huh?! if i copy let HER scold again! if don't pass it up get demerit points. WHAT?!!!!!! school life miserable.

MATHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK IT!

blah blah blah

2010-05-06T02:41:00.000-07:00

nothing to write.

meaningless

2010-05-02T04:12:00.000-07:00

life = miserable

yes, it is!!!

humph~

*&^%$#@

2010-04-11T06:10:00.000-07:00

i feel guilty this two days. wasted my effort.

GUILT!

obsession

2010-04-08T05:40:00.000-07:00

*sob* it's sad that i can't do things i obsessed with, like before already. it's sad that fat is not a nice things. hahahahahahahaa. so i changed my eating habits and following it 'tight-ly'. but still i haven't stop eating dinner due to loves to eat. on the way now. aiks. i have to quit going pasar malam that is the thing i obsessed all this years. pasar malam is like a food heaven to me. too bad, all food at there are extremely very high in calorie. haiz haiz haiz~

i hate the shitty fact that i can't go pasar malam anymore! damn it!

sickness

2010-04-02T02:24:00.000-07:00

due to excessive sweating and sun-ray from last few weeks until yesterday, now my arm's rash had came back. before this, i thought that was my skin reaction to the water at NS camp cause since i went NS was like this (i think NS camp water is dirty, LOL). i never thought that was rash. stupid, right? Hahahaaa. have to apply medicine again. troublesome betul. and i get to know digi will launch iphone on 1st April but today boyf go digi centre ask and they said haven't launch woooo, have to wait until tomorrow. slow. not efficient at all. i want it soooooooo much. if anyone can get me that gadget, i don't know what is my reaction that time. =))) happy + excited till faint. LOL. crazy me.
haiz. have to work tomorrow. wish me luck, peeps. definitely will bored to the maxx. i knew it! no need wait tomorrow and i already know it. sixth sense. go work and wait finish work.isn't that lifeless? finish work go sing K to celebrate my *cheap* birthday . hahahaa. woots. excited.

USA3

2010-04-01T05:15:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!!! extremely happy today. we, USA3 won the upper sixes march pass for the year 2010. woots. isn't that awesome? HAHAHAHAHA. gone out of mind already. fyi, SMI had their sports day today and of course quite numbers of activities were held including the most interesting part, march pass. USA3 won again since last year. amazing. WE ARE THE LEGEND! USA3 memang rocks! our darken skin are all worth it. have to do mask tonight. ;-) i flash back the moment we get ready for the result. LMAO. funny. ready for champion place wo. had alot of fun. work together as a team really can make it. we proved it. too excited. =D
today weather is quite good compare to last few days and i supposed to be walking pasar malam now.but plan changed. aiks. anyway, thanks god for not raining. yet still can enjoy the pasar malam food. food heaven. hahas. this month have to work again. start from this saturday means the day after tomorrow. i still have to complete the homework before monday and ready for PA test next week. life is so critical! it is too sudden. for money, nevermind lo. sacrifice. hate working. oh god, please make me rich. =)

KLsssss

2010-03-19T02:36:00.000-07:00

went to KL on monday and just backed yesterday due to tuition today at 1.30pm. i don't want to missed it so came back early. my purpose to go KL is just to shopppppp. but i can't get enough of it. so now i'm broke. memang truely BROKE! no lies. i don't know what i spent on till macam ini. hahaha. but nevermind. money is to spend!!!! my sis still at there and she got the chance to shop at boutique which is so damn cheap. ish. make me jealous.

another issue: HOMEWORK!!!! shit. still got math and PA work to go. not in the mood to do now.
so should i let it be? aiks. lifeless la form6.

10 March 2010

2010-03-11T00:05:00.001-08:00

today,SPM 2009 results came out and my sis gets a pretty good result. not straight A's of course. hahaha. her result better then me and she is so happy about it. =.= finally she had beaten me. anyway, congratulation to her. same goes to those who gets good results meanwhile those who didn't score well, just let it be. SPM is just a cheap exam. not that important also. LOL!!!

i am so emotional this few days. i need alot of money now. seriously! who can give me?! money rain please fall NOW! humph~ i miss kevin yew so much and i can't bear the situation did not see him even 1 day. ish!

test test test.

2010-03-02T22:50:00.000-08:00

phew~ finally my test had ended and i supposed to be happy about it but now i'm not. ended or what was not a issue anymore because another test is coming up. humph~ i even planned to relax after test and see magazine. urgh!! NOW!! continue revise la! really no mood to care about anything else anymore. this finished then that coming very SOON. i know it is sucks but what can we do. aiks. no time to relax at all. study study study all the time. be NERD meh???????!!!!!!!!!!!! exhausted betul la form six. just can complaining 24/7. ish! what a school!

make my face full of pimples. eat shit.

fuck!

2010-02-27T00:35:00.000-08:00

i hate when people pissed me off. and i am so damn very extremely piss now. why youngster (not me, please!) nowadays don't even know to do things properly? always last minute work. and now this issue distracted me. really mad until can't breath. WTF!! and this moment this week i am not free. if i have nothing to do, fine! i will do it and now my test is coming very soon. Bastard!!

annoyed!

2010-02-21T23:13:00.000-08:00

yes! i skipped school today due to yesterday outing. backed home at 3 something. i like that time. haha. i'm 100% sure that annoying math teacher sure will ask where am i? grrrrr!!!!!!! why teachers nowadays so damn annoying? i skipped school is my problem. i can't catch up is my problem also. why you people go and force people do what we don't like? like that will only make our schooling days become more suffer. isn't study suppose to be fun? aiks. i don't know what they think.

i don't like school because of teachers. duh!! stop control us!!

2010-02-13T09:17:00.000-08:00

just want to drop by and shout out loud.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINE'S DAY peeps.

damn you all

2010-02-03T22:54:00.000-08:00

it's been a long time i didn't update my blog. and this time i not gonna write a piece of good things or something good. this week is a disaster for me.i don't know why. at school let teacher said although i know i'm wrong but yet i still hate it. so for now i hate that teacher. then this week not a good week because me and my friends kinda like not as happy as before. not we quarrel or what. is doesn't laugh alot and play like before. maybe because of stress. don't know don't know. whole week just feeling like burst out all the foul words.

and the most i hate about was my salary. damn it. i checked at bank and the amaunt not correct so i pissed off. became crazy and everything. it's my money man. i earn it by myself. so i decided to ask la of course. and they just gave me the answer just now with the annoyed sound. fuck you all la. u think i want to cheat your money?! please la. your situation is worst than me. your chances for doing that is way higher. u think i got nothing to do just to sms n asked you about the money then annoy you? damn it!!!!! it's ur job then do it properly la. if not how will people keep asking you about it? that kind of job i better don't do it anymore. with that kind of supervisor. i rather sit at home and wait for money fall from sky. you call yourself as supervisor? eat shit. oh please! i can do it better than you! it's okay if you say nicely just now. but what's your reaction and sound tone just now?! i really feeling like want to curse you all. !@#$%^&*

i hate it when people talk to me with sarcastic reaction. if you don't want talk to me just tell me properly! i am not desperate to talk with you, okay?! i wish i could whack that people if that kind of people appear infront of me and talk to me in that way.
warning! don't talk to me with your sarcastic reaction + tone!!!!!!

life-less

2010-01-18T04:14:00.000-08:00

i hate my life sometimes and i hate it now. i don't like when problems start to occurs. i am so clueless now. when i start to get something i want, the other problems will occurs. damn. i don't know why. i don't want my life become so miserable. i want everythings go according to what i have plan. i am so annoyed now. no one can help me. not in the mood to do homework and bla bla bla. don't feel like want to talk right now. just shut up and SHUT UP. life is just so annoying sometimes. when good things come bad things happen. i just so damn wish now is holidays. struggling with school works and everythings are tiring for me. pray hard for getting over with all the problems.

can i hide at one corner and cry? =(

first week of school.

2010-01-08T03:22:00.000-08:00

well,actually nothing to write. just want to update my blog. LOL. hmm.. let me flash back what had i done. okay. math lessons become more and more challenging because the teacher started to give test on paper 1 since the first week and will continue until end of paper 1. in the class, formulae will be ask anytime so must be well prepare. today scared until die. because i don't know the formulae at ALL. HAHAHAHAHA. i know it's for our own good so not much comment. so mesti RAJIN looooooooo........ and the bussiness studies teacher changed. the teacher 'JENG'. LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! her facial expressions extremely funny. alicia and nick can't stop laughing and i am feel so guilty because very rude and i didn't concentrate. but then nevermind. laugh makes day more easier to pass. i laughed alot this week. laughing non-stop. LOL. i love it. aww..... loves my friends so much. they make my day more meaningful. er.. nothing to crap anymore. waiting for movie night tomorrow. woots~ and have to finish up homework before going out. =.=

resolution for this year : i hope and wish i can be more hardworking. HAHAHAHAHA. work hard for life. *change me please* hope this year will be the best year for me, you, you, you, and you. =)

hahahahaha

2009-12-28T01:17:00.000-08:00

today is monday.28 december 2009. which means i still 6 days to finish up all my homework for school reopen on 4 january. those homeworks REALLY alot. serious. no joking this time. really die this time.how can i done all the works on this few days? i don't have the mood to do all those works at all. seii lo seii lo.. still went jj just now. tomorrow have to go jj again. 3 days in a roll. woots~ ahahahaaha. i can imagine all the teachers expressions when i go back to school. especially those who didn't done their works. which mean me. Hahas. really syok that time. get scold AGAIN. get used to it but still hate it. SEII SEII SEII SEII SEII....................
and i am soooooooooooooooo sleepy. HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

good luck to myself. :p

mistake .

2009-12-23T20:49:00.000-08:00

i'm so dead this time. totally fucked up. i supposed to be working on yesterday but i didn't gooooooooooooooooooooooooo......ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO DAMN DEAD THIS TIME. what the tut~~~~~~
the story is like this : last monday i went back office then they told me got job lo . okay then. i accepted and they told me only works for 3 days.3 DAYS!! not 4 ar.. its TIGA , THREE. and just now i went back office again and they ask me 'yesterday you got go working mou wo?' then i ngoong jor. HAR!!! need meh yesterday? i didn't go. one of the supervisors okay la. he nothing.
overall is nothing but my image. aiks. seii mou. this could never happen to me but why?

this is not about money. i don't care about that money but my image was spoiled.
DIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my feeling is totally mess up now. don't know sad or upset or what.
why does these things happened to me? always me.

please let me scream as loud as i can~

totally diu !!!!

2009-12-14T09:33:00.000-08:00

what the f***.

what am i thinking? fall for you wo . hou lan 7 ng dim lo . totally wrong .

SHIT! @#$%^&*.

full of vulgar words on my mind now. jou matt 7 o . forget you la .

damn.cannot already.stop imagining.

2009-12-07T01:35:00.000-08:00

I just watched new moon.i know it was kinda late but who cares?as long as i watched.
don't care why people don't like the movie.i just love Edward and Jacob.
OMG!They are damn super duper extremely handsome.arh~melted.
I ♥ Robert Pattinson. I ♥ Taylor Lautner.
Twilight saga best. Irressistible.
waiting for eclipse.

disgusted!

2009-12-01T08:54:00.000-08:00

eating at middle of the night was totally yucks!!!

why am i ate just now?

yucks yucks yucks.

shit.

anti food!

2009-11-23T09:13:00.000-08:00

waiting to receive new moon OST from my friend and i am sleepy.i want to sleep because my eyes are getting like panda eyes.since still have to wait for few minutes then i better benefit the time with updating my blog about guilty feeling.aiks.
i don't know what happen to me recently.keep on eating non stop.i am gaining weight and i hate it so damn much.i do hate foods now because it make me fatter n fatter.*fat a lot*and my stomach getting bigger and bigger.oh please,save me from this situation.
keep me away from foods.
but i'm craving mcd twister fries now.URGH!!!is a must to eat at this season.how can i miss it.but how can i eat some more?sometimes i do wish i am anorexic.
urgh!!!!!!!!!!
i hate foods.
make me feel sick and anti-foods please~

foods are heaven once u know how to manage and consume it.i love foods actually.
T.T

extreme days.

2009-11-22T06:40:00.000-08:00

after work,feet tired like hell.ran here ran there for the whole days.from end of the store (not that the store at kampar road,is STORE) to the front then run back to the end.the most tired day among the days i worked.urgh!!!but nevermind.let it be my exercise la.my FEET is extremely pain now!wish go to spa and massage now.*arh~so enjoy.DREAMING*
phew!!luckily today finished work early and finally i'm sitting in front of Pc now.
since the weather raining the whole day i felt like want to straightly heading to my bed and sleep after eat.ZZZZZZ...hahahaha..but i know can't because i gain weight again.=.= sad case.

after all,at here i would like to wish all SPM and STPM candidates GOOD LUCK and TRY YOUR VERY BEST.especially who know me and my sis and my b....

*try your best bb*
muacksss.

pray for it.please GOD.

exhausted day + 6th form nite

2009-10-31T11:15:00.000-07:00

31 of October.SMI 6th form night.late for an hour.but still able to enjoy the night because the climax was at the end of the night.we all dance like nobody care.WOOHOO~~lazy to write it all..

picture do all the talkings.

the only costume wore at the night.

prom queen of the year.

end the day with this picha!

books and exam.

2009-10-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

shit.my exam is near and what had i read??????i have my book infront of me now and i'm writing blog?damn.how could this happened??i just so damn hate myself for making these happened.why am i getting lazy?i hate read books and sit for exam.i just don't like read.

SAVE ME!

'DAD' aku.

2009-10-09T08:54:00.000-07:00

this few days always get scolded by teacher.our class like kena curse.all the time get scold.so sick of it.although always say we are pre-U student but never treat us as that kind of student.but treat us like kids.ADUH.so tak tahan.especially my so called 'dad'.ish.when saw him only feel like want to punch him.only know how to make people suffer.i really don't know why our m'sia government always make new things out.like make us stay back until 3.20.if our exam is based on semester term,OK!fine!but now damn shit.time not enough.somemore got alot of homework.school is just like a jail.have to follow this and that.aiks.
my school end year exam is coming and yet i still haven't revise ANYTHING at all.god,help me!must fail again this time.what can i say?form6 speechless...

he is the one.<3

2009-10-04T02:51:00.000-07:00

i suddenly feel like love my boy so much.LOL.thanks to him for hearing what i crap yesterday even though he was not feeling well.really thanks alot b.thanks for always being there for me even though i always did wrong.

*loves for you*

cheap bitch!

2009-10-03T09:55:00.000-07:00

such a cheap bitch.i damn hate you.you the one who always screw me up.i will never get affected by you.NEVER.i always better then you.ALWAYS.ALL THE TIME.
CHEAP ASS.

hectic life

2009-09-30T07:38:00.000-07:00

this week is the hectic week ever.likes alot of things to do and alot of things to learn.maybe this few months i been dreaming while teacher teaching.i don't know.seems like what i had learn all forgotten.haiz.like wasting time only went to school.have to be a good girl and learn properly what teacher teaching.there is no way back to past and learn all over again.luckily today can relax for a while because tomorrow supposed to be a PA test going was postpone already.don't know postponed or what..whatever la.anyway,what to say is form6 is all about hard work.

LMAO!

2009-09-23T10:44:00.000-07:00

went yum cha with ex classmate.it was a WOW.thought it will be a boring night but guess what.i laughed alot.means all of us la..

and i have to sleep now.
can't let kevin yew wait for a century although he waited me for a few century.
ooh ya..I know im bad.

off.

movie nite!

2009-09-22T00:24:00.000-07:00

tonight going to watch movie with tersayangku.LOL.
*excited*

pissed!!!

2009-09-15T00:24:00.000-07:00

what's the problem with u boy???
always make me angry at u.u just so pissed me off u know?
i'm so damn hate u now.

woohoo~~~

2009-09-10T00:32:00.000-07:00

yeah!i free from my braces already.. *i gotta feeling,yeah~~*

yet,today is not a good day because get scold by the black teacher..duh!!sick of him already.everyday scold never feel bored meh huh????i wonder is it his hobby is scolding people and make people suffering.nevermind.don't let this stupid thing spoil my MOOD.YEAH~~
hopes nothing bad will happen to me.
=)

lost and gone

2009-09-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

argh!!!rushing homework.lots and lots of homework.like never will finish.now is 2.11am already and i haven't done half of it also.damn.how i gonna pass up on tuesday???what a school.i want to sleep.........................
while doing homework,suddenly my mind back to the past.think what phone i used before.sad thinking of these.here is the list.LOL.

the first-nothing happened second-spoiled(sometimes 'sot') i love this phone that time.LOL.this stole by theft.
this not mine but i using it when it get stole by some bastard.
this safe.sold already.not mine but used before.
after w550i get stole,used these for a while.when took to school,get stole also.
dear purposely bought it for me when all my phones get stole.LOL.i love it.now sold.
after z610i sold,i used this.new bought and i use it first.dear bought it.now using it.
after back from NS,change to this phone.but at last get robbed by 2 malay bastards.

I MISS IT NOW =[

iphone.all time favourite

for now,i wanted this alot.have to wait until next year.

now is 3.18am.i wanted to sleep so much.but i can't.please help me!!!!!

ooh~

2009-09-01T08:05:00.000-07:00

no mood to study today.still in holiday mood.argh~i want holiday again,please...
waiting for raya holiday.haha..
HOLIDAY!!!

drugs

2009-08-25T23:25:00.000-07:00

this few days i been playing facebook quiz.i like this the most.
the question is:what career suit your personality type?

INTP - The Thinker

You have a special ability to generate and analyze theories and possibilities to prove or disprove them. Your insight and creative thinking allows you to quickly understand complex abstract ideas. You also have excellent logical and rational reasoning skills which assist you in your drive to seek clarity in all areas. You will be happiest in careers that allow you a great deal of independence and autonomy where you focus on theory rather than practical applications. Some of your personality traits include: * Love theory and abstract ideas * Truth Seekers - you want to understand things by analyzing underlying principles and structures * Value knowledge and competence above all else * Have very high standards for performance, which you apply to yourself * Independent and original, possibly eccentric * Work best alone, and value autonomy * Have no desire to lead or follow * Dislike mundane detail * Not particularly interested in the practical application of your work * Creative and insightful * Future-oriented * Usually brilliant and ingenious * Trust your own insights and opinions above others * Live primarily inside your own mind, and may appear to be detached and uninvolved with other people Some of your suggested careers are: * Scientist - especially Physics, Chemistry * Photographer * Strategic Planner * Mathematician * University Professor * Computer Programmer, Systems Analyst, Computer Animation and Computer Specialist * Technical Writer * Engineer * Lawyers / Attorney * Judge * Forensic Research * Forestry and Park Rangers

i think this quiz is quite accurate.

H for what?

2009-08-22T01:08:00.000-07:00

yeah!!finally holiday already.oh god.no people will know how i wanted this holiday since last june holiday especially what i had gone through this whole week.
damn.this whole week super duper fcuking sucks for me.headache for not enough sleep.
what causes me lack of sleep?
taa dah!!!the answer is my PA assignment.i have been busy with this work from monday and only finish on thursday night.i been keep rushing to get it done.i done the essay on monday night but teacher said change to pass up at wednesday.okay.that's a good news for me..so that i can make my work more complete.after pass up that essay,still need to do that stupid powerpoint presentation.
i completed it on wednesday night but can't present it on thursday because that 'old school pc' can't supported the format.so let other group present it first.all the group who presented it does not satisfied sir so have to go back and do again.
AGAIN!!WHAT????
i don't want r....this assignment make me suffer but no choice have to do again.
so i changed the powerpoint format and the point.do until 12something.
i can only go to bed at 12.55 and sleep.
the worst thing is i been thinking of this assignment while sleeping too...
oh damn.no one will know how this assignment tortured me.:(
so i wanted this holiday so much.so that i can sleep as much as i can.wee~
what i expected had became reality.holiday with damn lots of homework.
can't relax much.
nevermind.as long as i can sleep that just enough for me..
should i get my hair cut?school prefect keep caught me for my hair.actually not that long but don't know what they think.soooo responsible for their work.but i will not het my hair cut because of the reason i hate.which is the school rules.
rules are meant to be broken!

my wish

2009-08-20T04:05:00.000-07:00

i thought after today i can relax.but my thought is wrong.i have to prepare again for my damn PA presentation..exhausted la wey...
no people is perfect.

extreme week!!

2009-08-15T09:39:00.000-07:00

busy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rushing assignments!!
damn shit..
extra time please~

high heels?

2009-08-11T03:36:00.000-07:00

my sis scolded me why i didn't update my blog.LOL.too busy to online and TOO lazy to write all things out.
today,scolded by math teacher.LOL.because don't know answer question.actually i know but just my brain slow motion.so i just said i don't know.I REALLY KNOW HOW TO DO IT.just give me some time to think.today ate MCD without using our own money.our form teacher treat us.WOOHOO~~~LSA3 ROCKS WEY...thank you,pn........(don't want to write her name out,PRIVACY)LOL.
suddenly feels like want to wear high heels but like so old.since i sooooooooooo short,my height make me want to wear it.but i can't find the heels that i like except for dinner that type.=.= i want shooping........and i want to change phone.when can i change it? hope i pass the interview and 'fatt tat'.(dreaming)

suddenly feels like i love my boy so much.muaxx BB..

small test

2009-07-29T06:42:00.000-07:00

ya...i just finished my school july test today.kinda relax today because no homework and studies going on school..damn love the life without homework.LOL.and i get back my math test paper already.and once again i failed my math since long time ago.when i only can pass my math???oh GOD.
5 and 11 of august gonna out of school and sell tickets.don't where and how to sell.
tomorrow alone again besause of someone does not go to school.lazy fella.
and.how can i change myself?big question.

!@#%^&*+

2009-07-24T23:50:00.000-07:00

F*CK OFF BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

apa?what?

2009-07-17T04:08:00.000-07:00

Mixed Cuisine restaurant is sucks!!it is located just opposite SMI.same shop lot with oldtown kopitiam.food is damn not nice.somemore the boss is damn super duper no brain.
today after school went there eat lunch with dear and his friends.i ordered a seafood spaghetti and a lemon chicken rice.i though it is nice and like got oyster at the spaghetti but only gt 2 prawns,few fish paste and crab meat.and i just think 'never mind la,maybe it's nice.but damn not nice at all.the sauce damn sour and i ate until almost finish then only ate the prawn.THE PRAWN IS SMELLY!!!!!!after that i ask dear to try and see whether is it really smelly or what.YA,its really smelly.then we called the boss come and complaint about that.the conversation is at below:

boss:yes,anything?
dear:the prawn was smelly.
boss:ooh.sorry.i change to you.
*after a moment*
boss:do you want me change to you?
me:har????no need la.*i was blur.what mean want or not?you should change*
*few minutes*
boss:*again*are you finish eat already?(ask dear)
dear:*blur*(he not yet finish eat)ohh..ok.
then the boss took the plate away.because the prawn at dear plate.
damn no brain.people not yet finish eat also take away that plate.
after a while~~~~~~~~~~~
boss:excuse me.that prawn not 'busuk'(she mean rosak).this batch of prawns is not FRESH.
i thinking.not fresh??still dare to serve people.
she bla bla bla many things.

really damn stupid.at last,she still charge us on that spaghetti.she should not charged it.is it that the right way to do business??i don't know how she do business.

and..i thinking whether i should change my life?i want to but i scare i can't do good on that.how?and where can i find the money?aiks..

tired~

2009-07-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

nothing much to write..just want to make my blog 'alive'.LOL..this whole week busy like heaven..homework will never finish.today just too exhausted to do everything.homework also didn't do..have to rush on saturday and sunday.must rush until die.saturday night attend friend birthday party.my sis having a party at same place too..hope everything will going well.happy birthday f.wai kit.

yes or no.maybe new maybe not

2009-07-03T07:51:00.000-07:00

today,went to school like usual.still the same mood,tired and slepy.whole class not really know what teacher talking about especially bussiness.after school straightly heading to tuition center but only start tuition at 2pm.so hanging at MCD with friends.then i ate filet o fish again.in this week i ate 2 times MCD already.so FAT.LOL.today at class,the new guy a.k.a france guy sit beside me...WOOHOOO~~~LOL...didn't think that he will come and sit beside me.but i damn embarassing la..don't know how to speak english.(i mean as fluent as white people).malunye aku.when i told my friends about that,they all were like 'yeer.........why he sit beside u one???'LOL.how i know??maybe he can't see clearly from behind.and i said he maybe got gf already and they like so wasted.can't tackle him...LMAO!!hope that can ....... again.SSSHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

France!!!

2009-07-02T00:08:00.000-07:00

LOL.yesterday my class have a new student coming in.at first i thought is only student from other class or school..when i see clearly as he step into my class,i was like WOW,handsome guy wey.exchange student somemore(means white people a.k.a orang putih).LOL.he come from France.tall n thin.nose very 'tall'..=D He is very damn super handsome wey.clever somemore.but until now the second day he at school,i still haven't have a chance to talk to him.~in other way,i scare to talk to him.i shy la *blush*~yesterday he teach us France language.it's really hard to learn n speak also.wish to learn france now.everyone n our school all mention about him.they all said 'wei,gt white people r,hou leng zai r'...LOL.sooooo wish to talk to him and get to know him better. ;p
and and and.my 'new' assistant monitor damn very irritating.like want to stick with that exchange student always go to his seat and you know la..bergatal.today also like that.and after be assistant she like all also want to care.scold us wo.ask us do notes also while teacher didn't ask so.DAMN!!GILA KUASA.

ONCE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-30T02:49:00.000-07:00

what i can do annymore??my life just keep going 'malang'ly...DIUSSSS...i really don't knoe what i have done before to make my life such a mess..for being kind hearted,i always donated money...even donated blood..BUT,is really BUAT BAIK DIBALAS BAIK???after what had happen to me,i don't know that is true or what.in my mind,i think that 'if i be a bad person,can i have a better life or good luck'??why such people as thief or robbers doesn't get their balasan.WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY????????????since form4,my handphone lost or rob by people FOUR times already.4 handphones!!!!!i know its SUCKS!*cry* why must happen to me?

yesterday i went to pengkalan area there and looking for kevin and fetch me back home.but unfortunately he is not at home..so i decided to sit at the field and wait him.i waited for 15-20 minutes like that.ALONE.suddenly i feel something going wrong and i wanted walk to bank.and i don't know why i don't make that move and continue sit at there.SUDDENLY,two malay guys riding motor and went towards me.from that time i know what happen already so i get up.since i alone and they are riding motor,what can i do.i just can give my phone to them. i really hate myself for being so stubborn and not wait him at his home although he had told me to do so.and why i don't clever abit and wait at many people places.WHY?
this year i really unlucky.i know there are something else that will happen to me.and is really bad.i just know.i hope that guys will die badly and let me see it then i will be so happpy.i just don't understand why certain people will choose the wrong ways to find money??do you all(i mean thief that all) think that our money easy to get?we also work hard for it and you just senang senang come and take.is this fair?GOD,why these people doesn't get their balasan.ADUH!
my life really such a mess..
who can help me find back my phone?please...T.T

desperately need it.

2009-06-20T09:03:00.000-07:00

shit.i desperately need a bag.i can't stand other people buying the things i like...to be true,i envy that certain people..argh..i need shopping and money..i need alot of things.

make me dissapear from here,PLEASE!

2009-06-11T08:40:00.000-07:00

my blog was dead again..and i was too lazy to update it..nothing much to write about on this few days or last week..just holiday start on last week and i was so happy because can stay at home and sleep.no need go to school that i not familiar.i like holiday.not just like is LOVE.then,last wednesday i went to penang.a bored 1 day trip.not that bored is just can't go where i hope to go..went to batu ferringhi also.here is the pics.self-lovin inside car

mine and his at beach

my cute little footprint.LOL

glamorous name.LOL

he wrote this.=)

damn sunny that day

i capturing he playing sand

couple of the day.=p

end of the day
and.i don't know what happen to me this year.lots of problem occur.i really hate it.according to chinese zodiac reading,goat will have bad things happen and i not really believe it.now i don't know is it what so called 'bad things' happen.i am damn down and sad now.annoyed too.first i have to study the way i don't like but what to do.i have no choice and forcely have to do it.i don't know what will happen to my result since i don't like it.hmm....and now the damn education ministry have made a new study method for form sixes and now we have to be 'white rat' to see whether this method will work.in 2010 form sixes will start school form 8something to 4 something(not sure).follow matriculation study way.even the examinations.we really damn unlucky.now we have to late finish school and can't tuition somemore.even we have to follow the STPM examination.i wonder they know we will very tired if like that and even can't study well.really waste our time.really stupid la.oh ya.because of that i don't know how i gonna go and back from school.really 'THANXX' to them coz make such a 'NICE' study way for us.

and now i have financial problem.i am serious at it.everyone see me as a rich girl and they will not believe i broke.even if i broke i will NEVER buy something that is 'ciplak' or what.i hate people say me buy 'ciplak' things and i really mean it.money means alot to me and is my world.just hope that my problem will be ok soon and sooner..

i scare 1 day i will not be able to control myself and all thing will burst out.

holiday~

2009-05-30T02:56:00.000-07:00

yeah...finally holiday arrived...wait this day to come wait til almost crazy..can sleep as much as i can.HOORAY!!hahahaha...but this holiday still need to finih up my school project.make a magazine..don't really have idea want to do what.this whole day online online online just to find what topic should i write at my magazine and some info relevant to my topic.i hope my topic will not langgar with other people topic.
don't like people same with me.hehe..hope my magazine will be interesting.
tonight going out again.=) i love hang out with my boy.miss him so much.later can go buy paper that all for my magazine.LOL.
aiya..don't know what to write already.stop la..

blur life.LOL

2009-05-23T08:56:00.001-07:00

hahahaha....my blog were so dead.lazy to online n update blog.let me sumarize what i done this whole week..last monday,school reopen for those form sixes..now i study form six at smi.i don't like that school much.don't know why.maybe because didn't have friends accompany me now.have to suit myself in a whole strange world.the place was huge.all the buildings got hundreds years of history.(not all)hehe.

if i have my life like before i think i will love smi.i just so need my friends at my side.now i realize friends are important to me..i miss u all.

after 3 days of orientation,we were divided into our class.that time was shit.i was divided into a different class with my only close friend at there.i was like OMG.how do i gonna survive???then,the day after orientation day,we're in class rite..the teacher already start teaching.i think our school is the earliest school to start teach.semangat huh??hahaha..im in science class now.i apply to change to art class and now stil waiting.i think after holiday only can change.if i successfully to change class,i will teach by the most fierce teacher in the school.SHIT!!!i really scare.

only the first week at school,i get scolded by him alreasy.i know it's bad day.i was so innocent.suddenly get scold.i was so hate him and scare him la..what should i do??until now-the second week of schooling-almost get in to third week,i still not yet get use of that school.the canteen was so crowded.no place to sit also..the school should provide more sit.and and and,my first ever speaking was on thursday.my presentation was sucks la.i damn nervous that time.=(

this month saturday become my burger day already..three weeks berturut-turut i ate burger.argh..getting fat again.then now i craving mcd.but can't eat la.i can't get fat.FAT PO!!!!

just back from jusco.go there jalan jalan and bought a test pad and a watch to go to school.no cheap watch to wear..hehehe..

NEXT WEEK POPULAR ARE HAVING A STOCK CLEARANCE SALE.

29.5.09-7.6.09.

10.00AM - 10.00PM.

i was just thinking to go and see whether got cheap things or not.hahaha...just now at jj saw a ck perfume.i love that smell so much but no money to buy.pity.now,i was addicted to fragrance.

BURBERRY-THE BEAT.

suddenly i flu la.urgh.hate flu.

nothing to write already.have to go back school on monday.sien.can't wait holiday.~have to work hard also during holiday~

my new principle of life:work hard for STPM. LOL

new life AGAIN!!

2009-05-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

today really a big challenge of my life...for u all information,today is form 6 registration day..i get the school that i hope for and i think everything will be fine but i not fine at all...is TOTALLY not fine...not okay...
today was just like a UFO.like a stranger step in another world..all strangers.new place.i not even know where is the toilet..the biggest problem is i've not many friends at there..especialy close friends.all my best friends and most of my gang at college now..really sad case.i miss my form5 life alot.at least i have friends accompany me.now only me a girl in my gang study form6.it's really sucks to me.NS life is way better then form6.(at this moment)
tommorow another terrible day.have to sit bus go to school.i can't imagine what will happen when i reach school early in the morning.where to find my friends????like a bodoh at there.SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
really can't imagine.my life full of challenge.i don't know why also.my life was saddening..wanted to cry so much.
what can i do??now just can hope everything will going well just like in NS camp.
pray for god..
SAD LIFE!

it's never real!

2009-05-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

damn...
i just so upset with my own life..sometimes i really hate it and wish i am not me.i just want a better life.just a simple condition,it never achieved..what a damn life..what i wish for and hope,its never came true or just a little step i can get it but at last i missed it.everytime is like that..i really fed up..my life really full of obstacle.challenging life.
sometimes i wonder why other people can have a perfect life while i can't.WHY?is it i not work hard enough for it?hey.i work really hard for what i want.i don't know what can i do to change this damn life.
please give me a better life with what i wish for.don't pull me down again.STOP THAT!!

passed!

2009-04-29T02:35:00.000-07:00

i passed my driving test already...no worries now..can relax as much as i can without thinking of those driving things..PHEW~
so happy that i passed...now just wait to take P lisence...
YEAH!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...........

back and now is gone!!

2009-04-26T07:00:00.000-07:00

today,its gone again..this is the last day,it stay at our home..i mean our family dog,Lucky..im sad for one more time again..its gone.it will never come back again.since i damn sad,why must give Lucky to other person?it's family matter..can't say much at here..i think this is the best way...although he always bark and crazy for nothing and make noise,i still love him..he is just so cute..today,when my grandma take him go to car he don't want..he walk down from the car..ARGH!!!!!!!!!feels like want to cry..i miss LUCKY lots!!!

hope he will live happily with his new owner..will be a good dog.don't bark always.(bark for nothing).will have a more comfortable home.better food.AND hope his new owner will not abuse him..i hope he will happy with his new owner.don't too miss us..sorry for don't want you..really really sorry..its our kerugian for don't want you.sorry for what we had done.

i miss u and love u,LUCKY~

i love him!

my big day is tomorrow.wish me best of luck.do my best.don't panic.don't nervous.

i really hope i will pass and get my P lisence.

feel like want to scream!shit

BIG day!!

2009-04-25T03:47:00.000-07:00

yes...i know..everyone will think big day as our birthday but to me,this kind of big day is kinda different..next monday is my BIG day...BIG day of my life..next monday i gonna have driving test..P lisence...really scare that will failed..really really scare...ARGH!!!!i can't failed...i can't afford failure...today is my last practise...if still don't know how to drive,there is no way to learn anymore...i mean go to the jpj place there n practise..hmm....have to remember the technique and try my best...don't nervous..pray for better me..better driving skill..i scare!!!!!!!

if i do any mistakes,surely will failed..even small mistake...nothing much can do now...

LUCKY!!

2009-04-20T21:37:00.000-07:00

last sunday something happen..my grandma send our dog away,lucky..that day i went out at 11something and back at 6something...usually when got someone open door,it will bark but when i back i heard nothing...that time i haven't notice that it is gone already...then i go up put bag n change shirt..after that i go down n drink water then go out kacau lucky..ei!!!it is not at there then go out find find lo..tarak also...
i ask my dad where is lucky..he say don't know and ask back me throw away already r??i say HAR!!!i don't know wo..then biar lo..go out ask my sis n grandma...my sis sat don't know also..my grandma say only i notice lucky is gone..wow~that time i really upset..why want send it go???my grandma said gt people scold lucky very noisy and wan to sue us..so she throw it away...i know that people scold and i haerd it also...
to me,it is not a big deal...my grandma go takut pulak..i know she also keberatan to throw it away but she scare...that time i almost cry...and i really cried..i don't know that i care lucky so much...lucky really pity lo...no place to sleep and nothing to eat..then my bro came back from playing basketball and don't know who told him that lucky is gone..he started to cried..haha...really cried sadly..then give my dad scold..ahahaha...after ate dinner,my aunt decided to find lucky back...my bro n cousin follow her but they can't found it..at night,my aunt and family went to fetch my cousin back from work and after eat,my aunt still want to find lucky..she still not patah hati..but can't find it also..

then tomorrow means 20april,i have to go learn driving..don't know what happen to me...my driving like cacat already...many mistakes..but when i percubaan for that driving test,uncle told me pass already..then i like HAR???pass already???my driving sucks wo just now..i just aiya,nevermind la..pass then pass la..after that go drive at road then terus back home..when arrived home,i go room changed first and re-heat my laksa and eat..while i waiting for my laksa,my cousin suddenly tell me that aunt found lucky and i was like finally found it..phew~after a while my grandma handphone ringing and i answer lo...its my aunt..she want told my grandma that she found lucky already but nenek aku went out w/o bring her hp..my aunt told me that lucky hide under a lorry..argh!!!!!!!!!!!that time my tear burst out...i tahan not to cry..when my aunt go down from car and go confirm is it lucky then lucky go play with my aunt..my aunt came back fetch us go take lucky back home..when we reach where lucky is hiding,we try to take him go to car..he was like don't want..he scare that we will bring him away like sell or what..then my aunt take his hand n hug him go to car..he was shaking...pity him.when we reach home,lucky like sot already..it didn't bark like before and just slept..very pity la him...now he was like sudah terima pengajaran and don't want to bising bising again..pity pity...

today another boring day..eat sleep online and watch tv and movie from pc..

LAZY is equal to MALAS

2009-04-16T01:13:00.000-07:00

*sigh*

i don't know what happen to my driving uncle..
its almost been a week i didn't learn driving..he told me that he will give me a call when have driving class but til now he not yet call me..not 'not yet' is didn't..
he really pissed me off..
my parents keep nagging bout lisence and i don't know what shud i do...
not really don't know..is just i don't know how to open my mouth and say to that uncle..
he makes me lazy to do everything...he said that 20something will be my driving test but now i not yet master the driving skill also..just a liitle bit..shit!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
U JUST LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT!

incident incident sekalian HAHA!!!

2009-04-11T01:52:00.000-07:00

this few days also woke up at 10something..
after woke up,go down eat breakfast n watch tv den walk here walk there..
nothing do..
actually want to post blog on monday but too lazy...thought want to post blog on birthday but at last also didn't do it..
always stay at home nothing do,body also became lazy already...don't want to move..
last saturday went out celebrate birthday with:sis
daniel~pelatih plkn
wai kit~ns trainer
wan kar
yip yeong
piak lin
chuan~came after 10

we went to mp..at there we really crap alot..laugh n eat..after all people were full then my sis went out do some crazy thing..
she went out bring kevin come in to our table there..*kevin is unexpected guest*
actually i not very shock coz i can know that kevin will go that nite..he take a cake at his hand then give it to me...then my sis told me that cake is handmade cake..hahaha!!!!
really didn't think before that he will baked a cake for me..
after pay our bill,we heading to oldtown kopitiam coz that tyc want eat at there...
at kopitiam,we crap lagi banyak..laugh non stop..disebabkan got 3 ns trainer at there,our topic mostly all bout NS...hahaha...laugh til mouth also tire..i think our laughing was the loudest sound at there..SYOK giler..
when reach home then must go to room rite???
x sangka at room got a present lagi...from kevin yew..he do alot of things on my this
birthday..really thanx alot..

on 6 april,i went to learn driving..that day i really hate driving alot..damn hate..
that day,i learn how to go up that hill n parking..just one of the parking..i damn damn damn hate the hill...i really don't know how to control the clutch and oil that time..hope to back home cepat cepat..duh~at nite after dinner i cut cake..haha...this year birthday i receive alot if cake...til now after a week the cake still not yet finish..haha

de cake that i cut~

after that day,i wait wait wait uncle call me for another driving class..he said wednesday but he didn't call me also..then thursday nite he called me and ask me friday got time learn or not but i not free on friday la..so i terus say i not free tomorrow..on 10 april,friday,i went to dental appointment..what a bad friday...at first thought want to learn driving using kevin car after dental check up,suddenly i on the monthly blue..haha..so after dental check up,terus back home and rest coz i menstrual pain...hehe...yesterday i really pain til nothing can describe..i thought rest a while then will be okay..unfortunately,i suddenly pain like hell..fell like wanted to faint and whole body no energy..fell cold also sedangkan yesterday weather hot like hell..then go eat medicine and sleep..

at nite fell nothing already just slightly pain only..after eat go fetch my sis at tuition centre and went kopitiam eat..accompany my boss(kevin) eat..haha..i curi his nasi lemak eat..i can't tahan not to eat la..i love nasi lemak alot..hehe...after eat,we back home la...suddenly that kevin yew ask me want to c 'akua' or not...hahaha..i like to c them..i of coz say want la..then we go few places n c...we saw a damn beautiful 'akua' and he stop in front of him pula...wahahaha...c til so syok..

finally come to saturday part lu....
today get a call from uncle ask me learn drive..i nothing do then i say ok..
i love today lesson...feel that driving not that hard already..i think i can handle it...
today lesson best..SYOK!
after learn then back home...at home sit in front of laptop whole day..sit til now..now is 5.48pm..headache now..maybe coz of de cat(BM) smell..*SMELLY&HOT*
i think have to stop now..if not really pening later...

kesedaran-haha

2009-03-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

listening to estrella song..
wat a good song they have...
feel very relax when listening to their song...
today,continue with my meaningless life at home...
this few days also just stay at home n do nothing...
bored like hell...
today online whole day...play download games...
when i playing de games,my dad sat bside me...watching i play..
haha...funi la him...nothing do at home den c me play game..
...........................................................................................................................

think alot on this few days...
include u..
thanxx god i almost forget u...
but will think of u sometimes...cuma tidak begitu sedih dan sengsara sahaja..
how to say...
we are friends rite...den what u do to me what u say leave a big impact at my life...
my stupid brain keeps thinking what u had done..
but i noe have to let u go...
since u didn't find me after that day,i think our friendship will just end like that..
LUPAKAN KAU BAH~~
*thinking of u again*aiks

feels

2009-03-21T09:54:00.000-07:00

miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u...........i miss u lots.....
LOVE~i think i love u from de day we meet...
love u love u love u love u...
BUT i have to give up on u because of ur attitude towards me....
give up give up give up...
i dowan give u cheat anymore..im not stupid...
im just so into u n u do this to me..
i really heart broke..again n again u make me like this..
i think our friendship just a game to u and will end soon...
i love u i miss u i hate u...give up..
although u do this to me,i still love u...
~give up~

few hours happiness

2009-03-20T04:33:00.000-07:00

just back from kl few hours ago..
cut hair few days ago...
feel nothing..
back to boring life again..
hope to work now...but lazy to find job...
today im not in de mood...
whole day down down n heart broke feel...sad...
i know its just for fun but i dont know why i will feel sad...
maybe i take it real...
i really hope what u do to me yesterday u really mean it..
i know it just like a dream n u just take it as a game..im serious...
i know we just friends but what u say n do i really can't get it..
i know everything but i just cant control myself to step in ur 'trick'..
i like u..and u know it..so u play me..anggap aku ialah permainan kau..
i so stupid...terus bagi kau main...
please stop treat me like that...
for u,i willing to give up anything..i willing to give u anything..
i know u like her but y u still treat me as ur ....
my heart so broke right now..
u are the first .... guy who make me feel like this..
my friends ask me to give up on u but i just can't do it...
i hate u so much...u make me suffer..
if u like u'll find me..if not u just forget bout me...
y u'll like that?can't get it..
let go of me..don't give me hope again..
everytime i want let go of u,u do something to pull me back to u..
stop that,A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to forget u...please explain to me what u want..
u make me so confused...
hate that ily..give back my heart!!!!!!!!!

back to normal

2009-03-16T06:54:00.000-07:00

since back from ns camp,everything back to normal..
i just not so like this kind of lifestyle...
everyday wake up go brush teeth,eat den online..
watch movie using laptop den reply comment all those thing...
bored of it...
just hope something will change...
after took result just stay at home wait wait n wait...
wat can do...
have to wait form6,matriks dat all...

2mr goin to kl...
i wan cut hair n shopping...
long time din cut my hair edi...now soooooooo long...
go ther meet my ns fren...
so hapi...
hope dat v can njoy our gathering...hahaha...
i reli miss them so much...
hmmm.....
everything was past edi...now just left memories...
memories dat v have to rebut spoon dat all when eat...line up when take food...
do work together...chat with u all...make new frens..took pic like crazy...
argh...
reli miss dat much..
hope our friendship will last forever...
love u all so much...
LOVE NS!!!!
Kem PLKN Kem Bina Semangat Kuala Kubu Bharu,Selangor is de best...
best camp in selangor..hahaha...
when stil in camp,i cant reli remember dat camp name...
hahaha....
terima kasih kerana pilih saya utk mengikuti PLKN..
NS taught me alot of things...
thinking also change...

juz now ingat wan put song in ipod...
suddenly all song hilang...
wtf....
make me hv to make all over again...
ish!!!!

2mr go kl til now oso nt yt pack things...
laz wed back from ns punya luggage today baru i rela go kemas it...
now hv to pack things again for kl...
bored of packing things...

hope dat i will have a enjoyable kl trip..*winks*

kkb~

2009-03-12T00:48:00.000-07:00

after 3months at kkb,i finally back....
act not 3 month la...only 2month something....
i admit at 1st i mmg dowan go....i hate ns so much...
when at ther for few weeks already,i started to love ns....
now i miss my camp so much...
hope to go back....i miss my fren at camp....
miss them lots...

during latihan at camp,we had gone thru many things together...
hapiness n sadness....
eat,bath,sleep also together....
kena hukum pun bersama....get scold also together....
although at ther wil lack of sleep but i rasa dat worth it...
i learn many things at ther....its real....
especialy de principle of life...
i reli miss camp much...
walaupun kena hurt kat sana but i love kem plkn,kem bina semangat kuala kubu bharu~~~~~~~~~~~~~i love delta company....delta kangkung is de best......
KKB is de best....

today quite not hapi day for me...
today get spm result...
result not same with wat i expect n target...
wat can do...just can accept it...
n try harder n harder nex time....

my life~upside down

2009-01-28T05:02:00.000-08:00

today....
go ppl home 'pai nian'...
but my mood stil normal...not so hapi...
in my heart...
keep thinkin of eu...
ish!!!
y i hv to meet u???
owaz i find u....
u nie find me 1 times...very bad lo u...
from day to nite,i waitin ur sms..
but my waitin is nothing...
duno 2mr stil can sms wv u anot...
duno when hp will be keep....
i miss eu lotz....
~sttp~

ANNOYING!!!!!!

2009-01-25T06:39:00.000-08:00

now my time is 10.43pm...
my brain keep thinkin n thinkin..non stop...
i reli very fan....
so long time din think tis thing..
reli feel like wan to cry...
all this happen is bcoz of me...
argh!!!!!!!!!!!
i noe it is good things coz gt ppl .....
i wan for long time edi....
but not de way n de ppl i want....
i miss him alot..its real....
i really miss u...
i hope u noe....
i wait u find me but seems like nie me 1 ppl want to b like dat...
i wan drunk...i dont want think anymore...

right here in ipoh~

2009-01-24T18:30:00.000-08:00

im back to ipoh edi....
so hapi...coz can online n slep many...
hahaha...
tis 1 month i at ns camp....
i enjoy alot at there...
damn best...
noe alot of frens at there...
can learn alot of things....
i miss you....dun go back plz...

MISS ALL THINGS AT HERE~

2008-12-27T02:14:00.000-08:00

Long time din update post edi...
now,my feeling ia so so so upset...
duno wat to write...
2mr,28 dec is de day i go to ns....
argh~~~~~~~~~*wanted to cry*
i noe 2mr i muz cry wen go naik bus at stadium...
i hope i can tahan dun cry but i noe myself...i very easy to cry...
i miss my family here,my darl,frens,my life at here...i miss all i have here...
if can choose i dowan to go...
i never leave home b4 except go to holiday...
tis time 3 month sumore....
stil nt yt pack things for 2mr...wat oso nt yt do...i dowan pack things r....
nt sure wat to bring oso...aiks...

now i just hope i can make new frens at there...close fren...
i damn damn sker i wil alone at ther...
i nt very noe how to interact....wat can i do??????
pray to god....protect me please~~
i also hope dat i wil like my life at camp...like those hu cried after ns...
hv to wait 1 month baru can cum bek....wait for dat time...
i noe nie can bek few days...

conclusion is:my feeling~sad,miss all things at ipoh :(

don't want to go~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

kl vs ipoh

2008-12-21T05:03:00.000-08:00

laz few days went to kl...juz bek ystd...

kinda bored when bek here..

kl life best wey....~when shopp n out from home...

lots of shopping mall at ther...SYOK.

but i din buy much things....

feel like nth to buy...

so,tis time go kl used less money than i expect...

went to pavilion....i like it...

wat a huge mall..

when walking at higher floor,feel like wan to fall down...

haha..

i plan wan to eat j co donut at ther but i forgot...

aiks...

now hv to wait nex times...

at ther,v eat BR fondue...

nt sedap oso...*vomit*

de ice cream tey give all low fat dat all...

very weird...dun like de taste...

time pass so faz...

1 more week i hv to leaves home...

go to ns...

i dowan leaves home...

i rasa keberatan leaves de things i hv here...

~family

~dear

~my life at ipoh

~n many many......

i feel like wan to cry now...ish...

i sker i dun hv fren at camp...

no ppl teman me when do all things...

i nid ppl accompany me...

oh my god...

plz save me...

i wan my life in camp colourful...

6 more days...